A Snippet into Billie’s Mind – xanny

♪♪ Billie: Im Dezember 2017,
mein Bruder und seine
damalige Freundin Sie schliefen beide
in diesem Bett Die Lichter waren aus,
es war mitten in der Nacht. Ich kam in den Raum
wie ein Psycho Ich ging zum Klavier
und fing an zu spielen Aber ich erinnere mich daran,
wie ich mir das ausdachte, Diese Akkordabfolge,
die ich für schön hielt. Und ich haben diesen kleinen
Text geschrieben, den ich
einfach in Schleife laufen ließ immer und immer wieder und ich spielte damit
und probierte rum. Wir hatten einen jazzigen
Frank Sinatra Blick auf
den gesamten Song. Wie Daniel Caesar,
Frank Sinatra… Finn: Bublé. Billie: Bublé. Um…
Johnny Mathis. Finn: Dann fanden wir einen
Drumloop, Drum Brushes und haben
noch einen E-Bass darübergelegt Und der ganze Vers sind diesen
beiden Dinge und Billie’s
Stimme. Das ist alles. Billie: Ja, also an dem Tag, an
dem wir „Xanny” geschrieben
haben, ähm… in der Nacht zuvor, Ich war mit einer Gruppe
Freunden unterwegs und sie waren alle betrunken
und übergaben sich. Ich nicht. Finn: Und juuling. Billie: Und sie waren alle,
weißt du, sie haben
E-Zigarette geraucht, sich übergeben, getrunken Sich weiter übergeben,
weiter getrunken, weiter
übergeben und mehr Und dann weiter getrunken Und was wirklich seltsam
für mich war, dass es
niemanden interessierte. Wie das erste Mädchen,
das sich betrunken hatte und
anfing, sich zu übergeben sie haben einfach ihre
Haare zurückgehalten und
waren wie (zieht Grimasse) Und sie hat einfach
überall hingekotzt und
niemand war entsetzt Und es war seltsam. Ich war
so „Was?” das ist normal Das ist normal für euch Einfach meinen Freunden
zuschauen, wie sie jemand
werden, der sie nicht sind. Zuzuschauen, wie ihre
zerknittern und fallen. Da war dieses Mädchen. Sie hatte
zwei Zigaretten in ihrer Hand. Und sie steckt sich
beide in den Mund. Und sie war so “Hey
Billie”, sie schaute mich
an und dann so (pustete) Sie blies mir den
Rauch ins Gesicht. Wir wollten, dass es so
klingt, als würde man aus
zweiter Hand rauchen. Ich war so am überlegen,
weißt du, wie sieht Rauch aus? Wie kriegen wir hin, dass
es so klingt, wie Rauch
sich anfühlt und aussieht. Finn: In deiner Lunge Billie: In deiner Lunge, wie
deine Lungen aussehen wenn es Rauch in
deiner Lunge gibt und Die Sache ist, wenn man das Lied
hört, fühlt man sich unwohl. Und die Idee davon war… Finn: Wir haben die Vocals etwas
schmutziger gemacht, verzerrt. Billie: Wir haben die Vocals
verzerrt. Wir haben den Bass
super krass gemacht. Finn: Wir haben den Bass
sehr schwer gemacht. Billie: Und es ist nur… wenn
man die Verse in „Xanny” hört Das ist mehr wie ein
weißer, seidener, riesiger
Vorhang, der fließt Und es fühlt sich…. unangemehm
ist das perfekt Wort dafür Finn: Klingt eher
wie Kopfschmerzen Billie: Es fühlt sich wie
Kopfschmerzen an. Es fühl
sich an wie (macht Geräuscht) Die Verse sind eher so,
wie Rauch aussieht Und der Refrain eher so,
wie sich Rauch anfühlt. Finn: In deiner Lunge, ja. Billie: Wenn ich mit einem
betrunkenen Freund unterwegs
bin, fühlt es sich an, als wäre ich allein So, als wären sie
gar nicht mehr da -Drogen und ja, Zigaretten, sind
du, wie du dich selber tötest.
-Alkohol Und du tötest dich langsam damit Ich kann es mir nicht leisten,
jemanden zu lieben, der nicht
durch einen Unfall stirbt Jemanden zu lieben, jemanden
alles zu geben, ist auslaugend. Selbst wenn… selbst wenn
es für eine gute Sache ist. Selbst wenn du in jemanden
verliebt bist, der auch
in dich verliebt ist. Es nimmt viel von dir ein. Ich will nicht jemanden lieben
den ich verlieren werde… weil sie sich selber töten Direkt danach habe ich
die letzten Vocals für den
Song gemacht, welcher… Finn: Den letzten Vers. Billie: Den letzten Vers und
ein Freund von mir, naja, ist
zwei Tage davor verstorben Und naja ich war sehr…
es war sehr hart. Und es war speziell sehr hart
diesen Song aufzunehmen weil Finn: Es hat mich fertig gemacht Billie: Ja, die Sache
ging mir sehr nah. Und es gab viele Takes, auf
denen ich einfach gestoppt habe
weil ich nicht mehr konnte. Ich konnte es nicht. Es ist
verdammt nochmal hart zu
singen, wenn du weinst. Es ist verdammt hart.
Und, ja… wenn man… sich den letzten Vers des Songs
anhört, klingt es super kaputt Und es war das rohste — die
rohste Form in dieser Zeit Ich erinnere mich,
sie mache da (atmet aus) Und ich habe das noch
in einem Song gehört.

100 thoughts on “A Snippet into Billie’s Mind – xanny

  1. billie you have beautifull femilly anddd

  2. not becouse ur singer or talanted!

  3. This video=truest words ever spoken.
    Btw I know I’m not the first person to comment that but it needed to be said
    Also i went to ur concert.

  4. Billie is great, admire her since i know that they illnes she has is difficult is realy control her way of thinking is her a chance to know more about that disease and being a woman her way of dressing is great

  5. I think Billie it's more than just music, she is a special person is this bizarre world … I am literally overwhelmed with this woman and her way of making music!

  6. i just understood the lines
    “im in the secondhand smoke, still just drinking canned coke”

  7. Genius: exists
    Billie: lets make a vid where we describe our songs

  8. as a teen surrounded by drugs and smoking and alcohol who is also under a lot of pressure and always in the spotlight, I am BEYOND happy and proud that she is so intelligent and understands how fucking dumb it is to do that shit. its amazing that she also has such a supportive family. i’m so glad billies not into that stuff😌

  9. A friend of mine told me that she cant hangout with me anymore because im not trinking alcohol. She didnt know what to do else than drinking.

  10. this was a simple but yet thorough description and summary of Xanny…. like so beautiful and raw.

  11. Billie, you are genius at the lirycs they are always meaningful like no ones and I love them so much. Thank you for who you are. Thank you for being. ❤ ❤

  12. Give Russian subtitles, not well and so super!
    P. S. LOVE YOU ,BILLIE !!!!!!

  13. The inspirations of the songs of Billie Eilish are really weird

  14. 3:13 hit me too hard. I wasn't going into the day today expecting to be crying so early.

  15. I love the fact that I watched this before actually listening to the song. Gives a good perspective

  16. Yo you know what's mad crazy, she has a colorful mind with different perspectives of love and peace and has a dark deep choice of words. The video you gave to us to show us your big mind is just a spek of imagination.

  17. My everything. So smart and fucking talented Girl. I Love Her all my heart to the moon and back ❤️

  18. she says that she dont wan to love someone knowing she will lose them, but everybody one day will die. i dont see wrong smoking, we all will end up dead

  19. This song….xanny is a beautiful and just…a sad song this is why i love Billie she turns real life problems into songs and wants people to understand her, and to just sing a long so she knows that people care and understand these feelings and problems that are happening right now love you Billie!!❤️

  20. I love u Billie so fucking much! Ur my hero ❤️💜💙💙💜❤️

  21. Her explaining how fucked up it is that we treat drinking till we're blackout drunk and throwing up like it's normal, that was kind of a wake up call for me. I've decided to stop drinking and take more care of my health. Thank you for saying what you said. ❤️

  22. Omgggg I fucking love Xanny it's my FAVORITE song of the album ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  23. 2:26 when she talks about the feelings of smoke I'm yeahhhh that's my Queen that's Billie.

    Why is she soo freaking special? 💚💚💚

  24. Don’t thank Billie thank her parents that even made her alive 😂😂😂

  25. I cant really see where the headache is ¿ it is such a beautiful song in my ears😳

  26. I thought I was the only person under 20 who's not a fan of alcohol. I'm glad to hear this.

  27. I play alto sax , and I was trying to find a solo piece to play. I found an arrangement of xanny and it sounds so pretty, but it’s difficult to play. I recently started to play a 3.5 reed, and the song has 6 sharps. It literally takes the most effort, but damn. It’s worth it.

  28. i really eant to kill the girl who blow the smoke into your face

  29. no one:
    nobody at all:
    total silence:
    please stop:
    me:the guy next to him was billies brother I just realized

  30. This is exactly how I feel about people my age who do this stuff (I'm 15) and I just feel so alone because all they do is this stuff and I can't stand hanging around that. I don't understand why they do it either. For example, teens complain when they get pregnant and don't know what to do, then why'd you do it? you are not an adult you shouldn't be doing that crap! what do you think was going to happen? it's like they never learn, like you get drunk, throw up, then in the morning you suffer from a hangover, then you just do it again? honestly you just suffer in the end.

  31. Xannie (Zannie) the nanny, I always think of the beautiful little Caylee Anthony, taken from the world way too soon, when I hear or see Xannie (or Zannie).

  32. I cant afford to love someone who isnt dying by mistake -billie eilish
    Quite of the year

  33. It's sad because the most important people in my life all smoke for anyone who is ready to love someone remember to guard your heart because now that I've given my love to them there dying and I can't do anything to stop them there just like ashes they deteriorate there there but then they just blow away and there gone

  34. I feel her ALOT ! because both of my parents are big smockers and drinkers and its really sad and depressing when you see them act like a hole other person. I mean its like you don't know them anymore, your lost because you ask your self why do pepole toture them selfs with those unhealthy and dangerous things .
    And its scary just to think that evryday could be their last, because the fact that there doing it all on there own is HORRIBLE trust me.

  35. dawg I think it’s so shit that people listen to this song at like at parties and just completely twist what it is. they don’t listen to the fucking lyrics and they don’t get what the song actually means and that really bothers me.

  36. DON'T SMOKE!!! youll be killing yourself and won't be able to listen to Billie anymore… 🙁

  37. 2:59 killed me 🤣🤣 so funny!

    (At least to me) (the noise she made was so funny)

  38. Every time I think nah, she’s not that deep, I can come up with that stuff too! And then she hits me with “I can’t afford to love someone who isn’t dying by mistake” and I’m like 😶😍

  39. Bruh it made me feel so bad for that one friend who stayed sober the few times I drank..

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  41. ive been there with the party part as all my friends drink but i dont as ive heard and seen the puke when they're so drunk and i just cant deal with the fact that i could be puking after cuz i have a phobia of it and its just disgusting. i have been in a room where they were smoking so much that the whole room was just full of smoke (hotbox) also its kinda weird as they are only 15 but aswell im sorry about your friend 🙁 much love to you billie <3 Aurora

  42. hey guys, this guy that I dated who is also my best friend is struggling with self harm and he loves Billie, he was the one who got me into Billie, idk what to do, someone help me.

  43. well you succeeded in giving me a headache and a nosebleed
    (not in a bad way i still love the song)

  44. No one:
    Billie: walks into her brothers room IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT and plays the FREACKING PIANO

  45. the flower pillows look like the flowers in the you should see me in a crown animated video

  46. I’m putting my vape stick in the bin right now because that makes an extreme amount of Sense

  47. if I step into my sister's room she tells on me

    then we have Billie who can play the piano in the middle of the night in her brother's room

  48. My mom smoked when she was pregnant with me and she almost gave me Down syndrome, she said she stopped because I didn’t like it, she said I would kick and kick and kick until she had bruises in her uterus going out to her stomach, and she said she gives me all of the credit for it even though the only reason she stopped not because she cared about me is because she was in pain, not me her. She said she was vaping.. and I asked her about it and she said she was, now I feel like I’ve done something wrong to keep her from killing herself, she won’t stop even though her mom and me keep trying to get her to and even though it’s hurting me. The only time she’s ever done something I asked is because her mom was telling her to do it, not listening to me. My friends all study phycology and everyone’s them have told me that seeing the things I do isn’t normal, all of them see how I’m struggling but I didn’t even realize i was until they pointed out, my so called delusions, me seeing things that aren’t really there, me doing things that aren’t me with out any control over myself, me engaging in dangerous behavior almost in a trance, and they’re the only people who believe me except for me Grandma, and now because “It isn’t causing her distress” they don’t need to treat it in any way and my brain is just complex. We’ve done all that we could do, I always keep it inside btu when I speak out no one ever dose anything. Idk why I chose to rant here but please everyone try to have a better day then me. <3 It’d mean a lot of you could do that. 🙂


  50. Is she really 17? I think she‘s wise like a grandma-> she experienced so much with only 17 and she gives the best advices, she has a beautiful view of the world, such a big inspiration i‘m so thankful she exists ❤️

  51. It‘s so sad she/they experienced so bad things in their young lives 😕

  52. То чувство когда ты ни хрена не понимаешь

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