AP – “Is A Poet A Poet If Nobody’s Snapping?” @WANPOETRY (TGS 2018)


I’ve gotten into the routine of spending
most nights willing my poetry to be to be loud to be boisterous to enter a
stage unapologetically or even my mouth or even my tongue as if to say I
apologize to every poem I write for not being a good enough writer to give it
the soul it needs but it’s an original pointless heard it all before my
notebook is just another another drenched in soot from my own forest
fires like can’t you just be worthy of compliment
why must you fill yourself with compliments to call yourself worth to
call yourself poetry is a poet a poet if nobody’s snapping is she a poet if she
doesn’t write for you is she a poet if she only writes for her
is she only artist when someone else says that she is is she just just a
young and open mouth just busy hands since when did my piece become too
millennial for your consumption when did it become too loud for listening was it
all too personal too tear-stained and teeth mark how many metaphors does it
take to buy your sympathy are all these gut-wrenching details nothing but
currency do you care at all for the poems that breathe here do you care at
all for the poet’s that breathe here what makes a perfect poem what’s the
recipe do you need a little more pep a little less sob story what makes the
poem consumable for you what makes it taste good are you only entertained by
the poems that can fit into your own mouth when a poet comes up to this
stage and regurgitates the moment she broke if nobody in the audience makes a
sound did she say anything at all when a poem breaks do you blink how many times
does she have to rewrite her trauma for it to be easier for you to swallow how
many times must she relive it and relive it and relive it until she’s given a ten
but was it too depressing too sad not not not not not you not them
not art not anyone it’s just a poem it’s just another pain poem it’s just
another assault poem it’s just a poem so I’ll make them good I’ll try to make
them good I’ll rewrite and rewrite and rewrite and rewrite until it’s good but
what makes them good it is not me and it is not mine so when will my poetry not
be too much or when will my poetry be enough
when will it be exactly what you want to hear or when will my poetry just be from
me if I write a poem and others hear it is it still mine is it still art is it
still good is it still poetry

13 thoughts on “AP – “Is A Poet A Poet If Nobody’s Snapping?” @WANPOETRY (TGS 2018)

  1. “As if to say I apologize to every poem I write for not being a good enough writer to give it the soul it needs.” ❤️

  2. How many times does she have to rewrite her trauma for you to swallow it !!
    Damn!!!

  3. Unpopular opinion but if I am reading a poem don't fucking snap.

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