“Rated R” Slam Poem by Jillian Rabideau


The other day, I was denied entry into
a movie that was rated R, because in the film they say the word fuck. Three
times. And apparently, I as a 16 year old girl still have enough shards of my mangled
innocence left to where I’d be disturbed by such an explicit script. Disturbed…as if
anybody my age cares about graphic language, violence, sexuality, drug use, or
anything else that would constitute a movie to be rated R. It’s as if they’ve
never set foot inside of a public high school before. We may not be able to see
these things on screen, however we grab our popcorn and go to class as we
watch these unholy events unfold right before our virgin eyes and you…You act like
we’ve never seen this shit before! Freshman year I saw a girl get the
morning, noon, and night get kicked out of her. Over money. When the sole of the shoe hit her face it felt soulless. From across the hall my mouth went copper with the taste of the
pennies owed and the blood lost teeth inhaled from the blow and then the bell
rang, and it was just another Monday, and you act like we’ve never seen this shit
before. Four months ago I found a trail of heroin needles in my school parking
lot. And I followed the yellow lined road down where my best friend lay. His hands
were purple, his lips were blue, his nose was white with red bloodlines, red green
Christmas colored eyes he looked like a holiday gone wrong. I tried to get him to throw
it all up but he wanted to keep it all inside. He had so many needles sticking
out of him he looked like a voodoo doll for a porcupine, and I asked him what was wrong.
He said he couldn’t tell his lefts from his rights. Because she left him and now he’s fucked up and he can’t do anything right He just wants to see the light and the next
morning he wakes up and he’s just fine. You can’t even track this track marks
and it’s just another Tuesday. And you act like we’ve never seen this shit before.
Some school banned us from reading The Hunger Games. On account of kids
killing kids is too grotesquely unimaginable. However kids killing kids wouldn’t be such a foreign concept had you looked at our own suicide statistics.
Because one of every six of us is walking around with candy cane tiger striped looking arms and glassy eyes. You say our generation’s entitled but that doesn’t entitle our genocide. Who’s side are you on?
when another 12 year old’s dead because he came out as gay and it’s just another Wednesday.
And when another 14 year olds dead because she thought she was fat when she was
really sixty pounds and six feet under and it’s just another Thursday. And when
another 14 year olds dead. For being black and “disorderly,” and it’s just
another Friday and you act like we’ve never seen this shit before. The greatest
lessons I ever learned didn’t come in the classroom. They came when my friend
gave herself a vitamin C pill abortion when she couldn’t find a coat hanger. When I was late to school for stopping a suicide. when my ex-girlfriend was
electro-converted so hard she forgot my damn birthday. When I was raped in the
school parking lot. When I saw a boy my age down a bottle of Everclear like it was spring
water and called Death bitch for not taking him right then and there. You act like
you don’t care about your own posperity. You act like we’ve never seen
this shit before. But oh…We have. And it wasn’t on no movie screen no…No it was
just another school day

100 thoughts on ““Rated R” Slam Poem by Jillian Rabideau

  1. Wow! This really gave me chills! That's how I want to make you feel with every "visual poem" I make on my channel. Yall should check them out and let me know if I accomplished my goal 🙂

  2. "1 out of every 6 kids is walking around with candy cane, tiger striped looking arms, and glassy eyes" OMG MY HEART

  3. This is incredible; the words, your delivery, everything.

  4. Pretty powerful slam Jillian, Beautiful!!! Keep it going!!!!!!!

  5. Both of your videos are amazing! Thank you for having the courage to share 💚

  6. This is my second time watching this and a lot of this stuff happened in junior high im about to be in high school and oh god the next four years are going to be shifted

  7. damn, this really got to me. i’ve seen so much stuff and i’ve dealt with so much myself and this just gave my chills so badly

  8. Why are we forbidden from seeing it on the screen when we already have to fucking live it? Why is it okay to watch your best friend try to kill herself but not okay to see your soul and her thoughts portrayed on a screen by actors?

  9. Omg I remember when you only had one video uploaded. I watched this and suddenly became interested in poems/slam poems. Thanks <3

  10. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve rewatched this poem. It is incredible, so hard hitting and truthful. It’s amazing and you are amazing! ❤️

  11. I’m 14 and under weight and struggle with body images and idk why but this made me happy because I know what your saying thank you for saying what no one else will 😊

  12. Я могу сказать только отдно ХУЙНЯ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  13. i come back to this every single time i think about being public schooled again (im homeschooled) and im speechless every single time with shivers

  14. I honestly don't know much about slam poetry and haven't heard many..and I've made a lot of poor judgements to the few that I've seen.. I'll admit it if I'm allowed to. But yours was beyond great. Real hypocrisy between the movies and real life, a real struggle that should be addressed.

  15. The other day, I was denied entry into a movie that was rated R
    Because in the film they say the word "fuck" three times.
    And apparently I, as a 16 year old girl, still have enough shards of my mangled innocence left where I'd be disturbed by such an explicit script.
    Disturbed.
    As if anybody my age cares about graphic language, violence, sexuality, drug use, or anything else that would constitute a movie to be rated R.
    It's as if they've never set foot into a public high school before.
    We may not be able to see these things on screen, however we grab our popcorn and go to class as we watch these unholy events unfold right before our "virgin eyes" and you…
    You act like we've never seen this shit before.
    Freshman year I watched a girl get the morning, noon, and night kicked out of her.. over money.
    When the sole of the shoe hit her face it felt souls from across the hall
    My mouth went copper with the taste of the pennies owed in the blood lost
    Teeth inhaled from the blow and then the bell rang
    And it was just… another Monday.
    And you act like we've never seen this shit before.
    Four months ago I saw a trail of heroine needles in my school parking lot.
    And I followed the yellow-lined road down to where my best friend lied
    His hands were purple, his lips were blue
    His nose was white with red blood lines
    Red and green Christmas colored eyes
    He looked like a holiday gone wrong.
    I tried to get him to throw it all up but he wanted to keep it all inside.
    He had so many needles sticking out of him, he looked like a voodoo doll for a porcupine
    And I asked him what was wrong and he said he couldn't tell his lefts from his rights
    Because she left him and now he's fucked up and he can't do anything right
    He just wants to see the light!
    And then the next morning he wakes up and he is… just fine.
    You can't even track his drag marks
    And it's just… another Tuesday.
    And you act like we've never seen this shit before.
    Some schools banned us from reading The Hunger Games
    On account of kids killing kids was too grotesquely unimaginable
    However kids killing kids wouldn't be such a foreign concept had you looked at our own suicide statistics
    Because one out of every six of us is walking around with candy cane tiger stripe looking arms and glassy eyes
    You say our generation is entitled
    But that doesn't entitle our genocide
    Whose side are you on?
    When another 12 year old is dead
    Because he came out as gay and it's just another Wednesday
    When another 14 year old is dead
    Because she thought she was fat when she was really 60 pounds and six feet under
    And it's just another Thursday
    And when another 14 year old is dead
    For being black and disorderly
    And it's just another Friday
    And you act like we've never seen this shit before.
    The greatest lessons I ever learned didn't come in the classroom
    They came when my friend gave herself a Vitamin C pill abortion when she couldn't find a coat hanger
    When I was late to school for stopping a suicide
    When my ex-girlfriend was electro-converted so hard she forgot my damn birthday!
    When I was raped in the school parking lot
    When I saw a boy my age down a bottle of Everclear like it was spring water
    And call death a bitch for not taking him right then and there
    You act like you don't care about your own prosperity
    You act like we've never seen this shit before
    But oh, we have.
    And it wasn't on no movie screen, no
    No.
    It was just another school day.

  16. wow this poem is gold. YOu are obviousl very aware of what you are talking about. I just say, that just because its normal in school they have to restrict it towards the entire society. I know this is a dramatic analogy, but say you were a parent of a 4 year old and went to go and watch a rated R movie. The exact same reason why you would hesitate to bring your 4 year old to potentially sit down and watch it with you, is the same way that the government or whomever rated movies, do not allow certain age groups to be casually exposed without a guardian to watch it. Sometimes this can suck, I know, because as you have mentioned, the schools, and the world for that matter, is, like, rated RSTUV all the way to fricken Z. But If they lean back on this stuff, think about how hell and normal these things would be if a 9 year old grew up downing R rated movies and explicit content. I guess, although you have experienced tragic things, they want to protect future generations' youth. Because youth is a precious thing, even though some people are torn away from it at an early age. They still want to make some sort of effort to preserve it, because it is socially, and in my honest opinion, morally, to whatever degree- necessary. our poem is so beautiful and raw, and I appreciate your voice. Please, don't stop speaking for the voiceless and for yourself @jillianrabideau

  17. This is so true..at first I thought it was gonna be a rant about you not getting into the movie and I was like “oh boo hoo” but this gave me chills

  18. this is such a powerful message. I feel like my teachers need to see this because we get detention for saying "goddamn" and wearing a bra that has a strap that shows and many other pointless things like having bangs

  19. This is my favorite slam poen. I've listened to it for the last year multiple times and it still hits me as hard as the first time I heard it.

  20. Don't worry kids, this video is rated PG-13 because she only says fuck one time

  21. Yeah, fuck censorship. I may be old enough to be your father, but if you were my daughter, I'd let you see whatever the hell you wanted to see.
    What good comes from hiding the ugly truth from kids and teens? Even if they haven't, they will very soon find out what goes on, anyway, so
    I think it's better to let them confront reality and then perhaps have a talk about it, if they like.
    They'll be much more prepared for adult life that way. I mean, look at people who have been sheltered and home schooled or whatever.
    They're FUCKED UP. No one taught them that life is hard and very often dangerous. And they also don't know that they're allowed to have fun.

  22. I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my YouTube channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤

  23. I watched this once before, and yet again I am shaking. It was just another school day. It was. I can’t even cry at this. This shit is fucking normal. Normal for us, anyway.

  24. Love this poem and want to know the meaning behind it?! Check out my latest upload for the inspiration behind this piece! https://youtu.be/mMwxjtuadY0

  25. oh this shit hURTED! Im near tears becasue of accurate this is and it fulls my belly with righteous anger and im ready to storm over to my school and scream this at them even though its 2am here in northern ireland.

  26. Hey everyone!!! MY BOOK IS OUT! If you like the way I speak, you’ll love the way I write. And it’s only $10!! Go to https://www.jillianrabideau.com to buy All the Ways We Take Up Space now!!

  27. She said that her best friend couldn't tell his lefts from his rights. I can't either, but that's when I'm sober

  28. God damn. I love it. Keep rolling keep going and inspiring and slapping facts in the face of the ignorant!

  29. How are you the same age as me and already this good? I aspire to be as talented as you. Love your slam piece, thinking about trying slam poetry instead of just written free verse now.

  30. You're amazing. This hits hard. Keep doing what you're doing✨🔥🙌👏👑

  31. Happy Valentine's Day all of you beautiful, smart, sexy, emotionally brilliant ladies visiting here! You all ARE amazing and the world needs your voices and all the love in your hearts. You bless us with your presence!!

  32. Im in tears, you're so talented and this is now one of my favorite poems, thank you💙💙💙

  33. You you’re verily cool stay epic sis 💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯🔥🔥💦🔥🔥🔥🔥

  34. Sooooo I'm gonna show this to my teachers and have them react to it

  35. When she Said when 12 Died Because he came out as gay that hit home

  36. Wow, This hit so close to home that I was too shocked to say anything… I've come out to my mother just to hear her say biphobic things. I have had teachers stop me in the hallways of my school because of my color and sexuality. been called slurs in front of teachers who do nothing even when I ask for help… High school is a battle no one gets out without a little blood on their hands, I swear

  37. You look like a mixture of Billie Eilish and Danni Cimorrelli

  38. In eighth grade my health teacher actually showed that movie even though it was rated r because he thought it was too important not to show

  39. the line "sixty pounds and six feet….under" hit me SO hard

  40. My mom says I can’t watch something becuase it shows a kid lighting a joint but the thing that she doesn’t realize is that I’ve known about marijuana since the age of 8 and had my dad say to me hey Hannah can you look for my weed at age 8 I knew that my dads girlfriends daughters dad was a drug dealer and went in his home I went there so that my dad could get his weed keep in mind I was eight I get home everyday to my brother smoking marijuana I recognize the smell I act like I’m clueless but really I know so much I hate it.

  41. This is exactly right. I go to A INTERMEDIATE SCHOOL (Not even highschool)! We hear cussing, we see touching, in the next bathroom stall your best friend is getting raped, we all hate ourselves and SO MANY kids cut. But hey, we’re just kids who are seeking attention and haven’t seen anything!?

  42. WOW! I am speechless! I'd say what my favorite line is, but I think that the whole thing is just phenomenal. I've never heard anyone speak about this before. Keep up the great work.

  43. Haha true, but a reason kids act wild could be because they watch wild things. I’ve never given a fuck about this shit, but I’m also fucked lol. I’ve been watching that shit since a child, I feel most fucked up people have. Also research shows that kids are influenced by tv, pretty obvious because we’re human but yea lol

  44. beautiful poem but i’m not a huge fan of the performance aspect

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