Tanesha Nicole Tyler – “This Body”


So it’s 2 a.m. and a friend
tells me how bad a day it’s been and their desire to stop eating. I don’t tell them I haven’t
had a real meal in… two days. After an uncomfortable silence,
they turn to me and say, “I knew I could talk to you about this because you’re the only one
of our friends who understands.” When she says this, I can’t keep
from hearing, “I’m talking to you about this because all of our friends
are size 4, and you’re four sizes bigger than I am, so there’s no way
you’re comfortable in your body either.” No, this body is not comfortable, has never been “comfortable.” This body wears jeans that say
“love yourself” in the slogan. This body hates being told to love itself. This body doesn’t know how to love itself. This body– because nobody else
wants to love it. This body, it’s too big. Oftentimes, it starts
wanting to disappear, never wanting to eat again. It feels as though it’s always the topic
of conversation when it enters a room. This body doesn’t get
how she can be sick. It’s self-hatred for understanding. How my self-destructive habits
are somehow validation of her. Oh, this body has scars from every time
you tried to cut calories, [inaudible] out of our diet wasn’t enough. This body will never be enough. This body feels like a trap. This body hates
its relationship with gravity. Someone once told this body
it had its own gravitational pull. This body never wears swimsuits
without shorts, avoids mirrors
in dressing rooms at all costs. This body wants to be covered in art,
at least then, it’ll be pretty. This body has never felt pretty. This body feels like people meet it
before meeting me. If you want to comprehend this body, you must understand
that it is uncomfortable, but despite that, this body is a home. It carries the heartbeat keeping me alive, keeps me breathing
even when I don’t want to be. This body says,
“Fuck your beauty standards.” This body has more fight left
than the wars I’ve raged against it. And this body will not give in! (cheers and applause)

28 thoughts on “Tanesha Nicole Tyler – “This Body”

  1. The idea of feeling like others meet your body before they meet you is so powerful. On just so many levels, it speaks to things I feel every day. Thank you. You are amazing.

  2. This speaks the truth and speaks to me so deeply..๐Ÿ–ค๐Ÿ–คmuch love blessed be everyone

  3. Started watching half expecting to indulge in some disdain. Was instead pleasantly, unpleasantly surprised. She's amazing

  4. I come here when I need to hear other people express the feelings I cannot understand in myself

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  7. Those are my claps at 2:16 and their other poem was also PHENOMENAL that night! (They won the slam that night ๐Ÿ’›)

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