“Three Months After” by Cristin O’Keefe Aptowicz


I’m Cristin O’Keefe Aptowicz and
this is “Three Months After.” To want to disappear is
different from wanting to die. To disappear and to not have
to explain to anyone, to talk to anyone. To move to somewhere where
no one knows you, where you don’t have to look
at a single laughing face. To elope with this grief who is not your enemy This grief who maybe now is
your best friend. This grief who is your husband, the thing you curl into every night,
falling asleep in its arms. Who wakes up early to make you
your cold thankless breakfast. To go to that place where
every surface is a blade. A sharp thing on which
to hang your sorry flesh to feel something, anything, other than this.

100 thoughts on ““Three Months After” by Cristin O’Keefe Aptowicz

  1. Bereavement. Homesickness. A first kiss. Experiences like these transcend our rational understanding of the world. In such moments, we need poetry.

    That's why we're excited to have paired contemporary and classical poems with award-winning animators to help us all better understand the most inexplicable parts of life.

    Today, we published six poems in our new series "There's a Poem for That". We hope you love these poems as much as we do! Check out the whole series here:http://bit.ly/TEDEdTheresAPoemForThat

    Let us know in the comments which poems you'd love to see animated as part of this series.

  2. I haven't even watched the entire video but I commented so I get likes.

    Please Like I Need It

  3. Nice 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

  4. Why can't I find this poem online other than this video? Is it from her book or a personal poem?

  5. Personally I find the music a tad bit too loud and it's really distracting me from the interesting poem!

  6. Poem- a piece of writing…nearly always rhythmic. From google. All of this videos with poetry not even nearly near. Forgive my tautology.

  7. This poem is all relatable to most people at certain point! Beautiful lines!

  8. There are times I felt ashamed of telling darkness and grief my same old story. I wanted to totally shutdown and think of nothing.

  9. This series is such a good idea.
    Sometimes I have trouble visualising poetry and miss out.

  10. Three months later…reminds me to pay my quarterly social security contribution.

  11. I've read her poems before, but I've never heard her voice. A very emotional experience.

  12. Wow how sad. This is humanity in decline. And the perpetuation on humanity's decline. This is what happens when you expose yourself to popular culture. This is what happens when you marry for the wrong reasons. This is what happens when your tv gives you false expectations. This is what happens when you become superficial. This is what happens when you haven't learned to communicate on a more human level. You can write poetry well but you failed to communicate with your spouse? Sounds like you created your own reality.

  13. I thought I am now travelling to the another world it it was like just heaven..😊😊..

  14. I wanted to ask, are you only doing Englisch works? I mean I would understand as it is always best to use poets in their original language because you can lose alot by translating it. But there are many works I think would be awesome to hear, especially by some classical German poets.

  15. I would like to see "A dream within a dream" by Edgar Allan Poe 😍 please 🤗🤗

  16. Gaaaaaaaaaly! How depressing! Anyone in this kind of despair needs immediate help!

  17. I just watched all of these and they’re amazing! I would love it if y’all could do Dover Beach

  18. The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock by T.S. Elliot is my absolute favorite! It would mean the world to me if TED-Ed animated it <3 This is my new favorite series.

  19. AMAZING: I MUST SUGGEST TROPICAL DEPRESSION BY JULISSA EMILE, THEY ARE SO AMAZING

  20. Wonderful, how could I ever aspire to write something like that? I'm a fraud.

  21. I'd like to recommend doing an animated interpretation of Lyric 17 by Jose Garcia Villa

  22. how much does ted pay these animators, seems like the animations are quite the quality even though its minimalistic

  23. This one was beautiful! Please make one for The flower school by Rabindranath tagore.

  24. This is really beautiful and touching. Another poem that really made me feel such warmth was Childhood by Markus Natten. It is a really nice poem. It'll be great if you add that poem to this series. 💜

  25. Can you do “I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud” by William Wordsworth or Sarah Williams’ “The Old Astronomer”? ☁️✨

  26. Good counterpoint to Tennyson. Never understood what he was talking about.

  27. A Town Without Me. An essay by Kayo Hinazuki.

    “When I get bigger, big enough to go somewhere by myself, I want to go to a land that’s far away. I want to go to a faraway island. I want to go to a island that has no people. I want to go to an island that has no pain or sadness. There are no adults, children, classmates, teachers or my mom on that island. On that island, I can climb a tree when I want to climb, swim in the sea when I want to swim, and sleep when I want to sleep. On the island, I think about the town that I left behind. Kids go to school, as if nothing has changed. Adults go to the office, as if nothing has changed. Mom eats, as if nothing has changed. When I think about the town without me, I feel a sense of relief. I want to go far, far away.”

  28. Please add "If" by Rudyard Kipling, I would like to see what beautiful imagery you'd come up with. Thank you.

  29. Yes, Ted-Ed! you beautiful animators! and you brilliant poets! kill me with beauty, I like this murder.

  30. I like it so much i love how not only me but many like me are having the same feeling rn we aren't alone 💓

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