Why I’m done trying to be “man enough” | Justin Baldoni


As an actor, I get scripts and it’s my job to stay on script, to say my lines and bring to life a character
that someone else wrote. Over the course of my career, I’ve had the great honor playing some of the greatest
male role models ever represented on television. You might recognize me
as “Male Escort #1.” (Laughter) “Photographer Date Rapist,” “Shirtless Date Rapist” from the award-winning
“Spring Break Shark Attack.” (Laughter) “Shirtless Medical Student,” “Shirtless Steroid-Using Con Man” and, in my most
well-known role, as Rafael. (Applause) A brooding, reformed playboy who falls for, of all things, a virgin, and who is only occasionally shirtless. (Laughter) Now, these roles don’t represent
the kind of man I am in my real life, but that’s what I love about acting. I get to live inside characters
very different than myself. But every time I got
one of these roles, I was surprised, because most of the men
I play ooze machismo, charisma and power, and when I look in the mirror,
that’s just not how I see myself. But it was how Hollywood saw me, and over time, I noticed a parallel between the roles I would play as a man both on-screen and off. I’ve been pretending to be
a man that I’m not my entire life. I’ve been pretending
to be strong when I felt weak, confident when I felt insecure and tough when really I was hurting. I think for the most part
I’ve just been kind of putting on a show, but I’m tired of performing. And I can tell you right now that it is exhausting trying to be
man enough for everyone all the time. Now — right? (Laughter) My brother heard that. Now, for as long
as I can remember, I’ve been told the kind of man
that I should grow up to be. As a boy, all I wanted was to be
accepted and liked by the other boys, but that acceptance meant I had to acquire this almost disgusted view
of the feminine, and since we were told that feminine
is the opposite of masculine, I either had to reject
embodying any of these qualities or face rejection myself. This is the script that we’ve been given. Right? Girls are weak,
and boys are strong. This is what’s being
subconsciously communicated to hundreds of millions of young boys
and girls all over the world, just like it was with me. Well, I came here today to say, as a man that this is wrong, this is toxic, and it has to end. (Applause) Now, I’m not here
to give a history lesson. We likely all know how we got here, OK? But I’m just a guy that woke up
after 30 years and realized that I was living in a state of conflict, conflict with who I feel I am in my core and conflict with who the world
tells me as a man I should be. But I don’t have a desire to fit into the current
broken definition of masculinity, because I don’t just want
to be a good man. I want to be a good human. And I believe the only way that can happen is if men learn to not only
embrace the qualities that we were told
are feminine in ourselves but to be willing to stand up, to champion and learn
from the women who embody them. Now, men — (Laughter) I am not saying that everything
we have learned is toxic. OK? I’m not saying there’s anything
inherently wrong with you or me, and men, I’m not saying
we have to stop being men. But we need balance, right? We need balance, and the only way things will change
is if we take a real honest look at the scripts that have been
passed down to us from generation to generation and the roles that,
as men, we choose to take on in our everyday lives. So speaking of scripts, the first script I ever got
came from my dad. My dad is awesome. He’s loving, he’s kind,
he’s sensitive, he’s nurturing, he’s here. (Applause) He’s crying. (Laughter) But, sorry, Dad,
as a kid I resented him for it, because I blamed him for making me soft, which wasn’t welcomed
in the small town in Oregon that we had moved to. Because being soft
meant that I was bullied. See, my dad wasn’t
traditionally masculine, so he didn’t teach me how to use my hands. He didn’t teach me
how to hunt, how to fight, you know, man stuff. Instead he taught me what he knew: that being a man was about sacrifice and doing whatever you can to take care of
and provide for your family. But there was another role
I learned how to play from my dad, who, I discovered,
learned it from his dad, a state senator who later in life had to work nights as a janitor
to support his family, and he never told a soul. That role was to suffer in secret. And now three generations later, I find myself playing that role, too. So why couldn’t my grandfather
just reach out to another man and ask for help? Why does my dad to this day still think
he’s got to do it all on his own? I know a man who would rather die than tell another man
that they’re hurting. But it’s not because we’re just all,
like, strong silent types. It’s not. A lot of us men are really good
at making friends, and talking, just not about anything real. (Laughter) If it’s about work or sports
or politics or women, we have no problem sharing our opinions, but if it’s about
our insecurities or our struggles, our fear of failure, then it’s almost like we become paralyzed. At least, I do. So some of the ways
that I have been practicing breaking free of this behavior are by creating experiences
that force me to be vulnerable. So if there’s something
I’m experiencing shame around in my life, I practice diving straight into it, no matter how scary it is — and sometimes, even publicly. Because then in doing so I take away its power, and my display of vulnerability can in some cases give other men
permission to do the same. As an example, a little while ago I was wrestling with an issue in my life that I knew I needed
to talk to my guy friends about, but I was so paralyzed by fear that they would judge me
and see me as weak and I would lose my standing as a leader that I knew I had to take them
out of town on a three-day guys trip — (Laughter) Just to open up. And guess what? It wasn’t until the end of the third day that I finally found
the strength to talk to them about what I was going through. But when I did,
something amazing happened. I realized that I wasn’t alone, because my guys had also been struggling. And as soon as I found the strength
and the courage to share my shame, it was gone. Now, I’ve learned over time that if I want to practice vulnerability, then I need to build myself
a system of accountability. So I’ve been really blessed as an actor. I’ve built a really wonderful fan base, really, really sweet and engaged, and so I decided to use my social platform as kind of this Trojan horse wherein I could create a daily practice
of authenticity and vulnerability. The response has been incredible. It’s been affirming,
it’s been heartwarming. I get tons of love and press
and positive messages daily. But it’s all from a certain demographic: women. (Laughter) This is real. Why are only women following me? Where are the men? (Laughter) About a year ago, I posted this photo. Now, afterwards, I was scrolling
through some of the comments, and I noticed that one of my female fans
had tagged her boyfriend in the picture, and her boyfriend responded by saying, “Please stop tagging me in gay shit. Thx.” (Laughter) As if being gay makes you
less of a man, right? So I took a deep breath, and I responded. I said, very politely, that I was just curious, because I’m on an exploration
of masculinity, and I wanted to know
why my love for my wife qualified as gay shit. And then I said,
honestly I just wanted to learn. (Laughter) Now, he immediately wrote me back. I thought he was going to go off on me,
but instead he apologized. He told me how, growing up, public displays of affection
were looked down on. He told me that he was wrestling
and struggling with his ego, and how much he loved his girlfriend and how thankful he was for her patience. And then a few weeks later, he messaged me again. This time he sent me a photo of him on one knee proposing. (Applause) And all he said was, “Thank you.” I’ve been this guy. I get it. See, publicly,
he was just playing his role, rejecting the feminine, right? But secretly he was waiting
for permission to express himself, to be seen, to be heard, and all he needed was another man holding him accountable
and creating a safe space for him to feel, and the transformation was instant. I loved this experience, because it showed me
that transformation is possible, even over direct messages. So I wanted to figure out
how I could reach more men, but of course none of them
were following me. (Laughter) So I tried an experiment. I started posting more
stereotypically masculine things — (Laughter) Like my challenging workouts,
my meal plans, my journey to heal my body
after an injury. And guess what happened? Men started to write me. And then, out of the blue,
for the first time in my entire career, a male fitness magazine called me, and they said they wanted to honor me
as one of their game-changers. (Laughter) Was that really game-changing? Or is it just conforming? And see, that’s the problem. It’s totally cool for men to follow me when I talk about guy stuff and I conform to gender norms. But if I talk about
how much I love my wife or my daughter or my 10-day-old son, how I believe that marriage
is challenging but beautiful, or how as a man
I struggle with body dysmorphia, or if I promote gender equality,
then only the women show up. Where are the men? So men, men, men, men! (Applause) I understand. Growing up, we tend
to challenge each other. We’ve got to be the toughest, the strongest, the bravest
men that we can be. And for many of us, myself included,
our identities are wrapped up in whether or not at the end of the day
we feel like we’re man enough. But I’ve got a challenge for all the guys, because men love challenges. (Laughter) I challenge you to see
if you can use the same qualities that you feel make you a man to go deeper into yourself. Your strength, your bravery,
your toughness: Can we redefine what those mean
and use them to explore our hearts? Are you brave enough to be vulnerable? To reach out to another man
when you need help? To dive headfirst into your shame? Are you strong enough to be sensitive, to cry whether you are hurting or you’re happy, even if it makes you look weak? Are you confident enough to listen to the women in your life? To hear their ideas and their solutions? To hold their anguish and actually believe them, even if what they’re saying
is against you? And will you be man enough to stand up to other men
when you hear “locker room talk,” when you hear stories
of sexual harassment? When you hear your boys talking
about grabbing ass or getting her drunk, will you actually stand up
and do something so that one day
we don’t have to live in a world where a woman has to risk everything and come forward
to say the words “me too?” (Applause) This is serious stuff. I’ve had to take a real, honest look at the ways that I’ve unconsciously
been hurting the women in my life, and it’s ugly. My wife told me that I had been
acting in a certain way that hurt her and not correcting it. Basically, sometimes
when she would go to speak, at home or in public, I would just cut her off mid-sentence
and finish her thought for her. It’s awful. The worst part was that I was completely
unaware when I was doing it. It was unconscious. So here I am doing my part, trying to be a feminist, amplifying the voices
of women around the world, and yet at home, I am using my louder voice
to silence the woman I love the most. So I had to ask myself a tough question: am I man enough to just shut the hell up and listen? (Laughter) (Applause) I’ve got to be honest.
I wish that didn’t get an applause. (Laughter) Guys, this is real. And I’m just scratching the surface here, because the deeper we go,
the uglier it gets, I guarantee you. I don’t have time to get into porn
and violence against women or the split of domestic duties or the gender pay gap. But I believe that as men, it’s time we start to see
past our privilege and recognize that we are
not just part of the problem. Fellas, we are the problem. The glass ceiling exists
because we put it there, and if we want to be
a part of the solution, then words are no longer enough. There’s a quote that I love that
I grew up with from the Bahá’í writings. It says that “the world of humanity
is possessed of two wings, the male and the female. So long as these two wings
are not equivalent in strength, the bird will not fly.” So women, on behalf of men all over the world who feel similar to me, please forgive us for all the ways that we have not
relied on your strength. And now I would like
to ask you to formally help us, because we cannot do this alone. We are men. We’re going to mess up. We’re going to say the wrong thing.
We’re going to be tone-deaf. We’re more than likely, probably,
going to offend you. But don’t lose hope. We’re only here because of you, and like you, as men, we need
to stand up and become your allies as you fight against pretty much everything. We need your help
in celebrating our vulnerability and being patient with us as we make this very, very long journey from our heads to our hearts. And finally to parents: instead of teaching our children to be brave boys or pretty girls, can we maybe just teach them
how to be good humans? So back to my dad. Growing up, yeah, like every boy,
I had my fair share of issues, but now I realize that it was
even thanks to his sensitivity and emotional intelligence that I am able to stand here right now
talking to you in the first place. The resentment I had for my dad
I now realize had nothing to do with him. It had everything to do with me
and my longing to be accepted and to play a role
that was never meant for me. So while my dad may have not taught me
how to use my hands, he did teach me how to use my heart, and to me that makes him
more a man than anything. Thank you. (Applause)

100 thoughts on “Why I’m done trying to be “man enough” | Justin Baldoni

  1. It is the most purifying thing you can do… open up and let someone know you are struggling and truly mean it from the bottom of your heart. Nothing has helped my anxiety and depression more and it really lets you get back to the present moment and feel stronger after being vulnerable. This is something that is very difficult because my dad has kept every emotion in and surrounds himself with men who do the same and it can be very toxic and sad.

  2. When MEN struggles, they tend to keep it to themselves because if they share it with their friends or peers, they would be making fun of him, instead of HELPING him. And I don't blame them. Unfortunately, we are living in a CRUEL WORLD!!!!!

  3. I wonder how would today's society look if the word "toxic" was never invented. Would we still be able to speak? We would probably use sign language…

  4. Wait for some time when he gets divorced and gets broke he will come back to being a MAN.

  5. What a bunch of grade A garbage. In the real world, a man who's sensitive and needs to talk about his feelings is looked down upon for a good reason. It shows weakness.

  6. This guy must believe in the Disney movie narrative that confuses boys all over the world with his beliefs on what attracts most women. Men are biologically wired to be masculine and more women will disrespect you if you act as feminine as this man does. Why would women be attracted to feminine men like this as they would be dating or marrying another individual who acts more like a woman? This guy is totally blue pill and needs red pill knowledge ASAP!

  7. Here’s the thing… In reality most women are still attracted to traditionally masculine traits. How often do you see women who stand by their stereotypical alpha male boyfriend despite being mistreated?? It’s incredibly common and I believe women play a big role in perpetuating these gender stereotypes. I’m not saying it’s anyone’s fault but that’s the reality. Women tend to be more attracted to Alpha meatheads than they are to sensitive Beta males. Am I wrong?

  8. thats' it Acept who you really are and men or women just be humans. live in the light and you will see the best course of action.

  9. thre are smart men and smart women. the point is let's not waste their true talents and beauty.

  10. boys and girls. the most important thing is to look for the right person for yourself and not for the right person for somebody else. money and an old person or a n ugly person will not make you happy for sure. Look for the right person for yourself so you can live happily ever after.

  11. Part of this needs to be acknowledged by women also because a lot of women see these things (emotions, vulnerability, etc.) as less masculine also.

  12. don't forget who you are even tho you're in need.
    like a bird in the night your emotions deserve to be freed.
    you can cry!
    ~ Aurora
    (over 70% of humans that commit suicide are male)

  13. Good for him. But if he was an average looking schmoe this same message would not go down so well. Square jaw, ripped body, if he shows vulnerability he is an obviously masculine, strong man in touch with his feelings. The whole package. The average Joe would be just a pansy and be so in the very eyes of the women cheering here. Also I don't like the shut up part of the message. "Listen" I'm all for, but neither party should "shut up". It just flips the problem around.

  14. Thanks a lot …I totally agree with you…man & women can make this world like heaven..man should know why they are meant for..so the women…once they can feel deep inside &then react… the world gonna change I think….

  15. I am in the middle of Jane the Virgin Season 5 right now. I was actually team Michael until this video. Rafael all the way!!! LMAO
    No but for real, he is so correct and really made me think. Justin has some very wise words! He is a great actor and a great speaker!

  16. I’ve never had a Ted Talk actually make me cry like this. These words, this whole speech/thought process and this speaker’s sincerity are somehow exactly what I’ve waited my whole life to hear, though I didn’t fully know it till now. I hope this Ted Talk and its ideas along with the few excellent male role models like Mr. Baldoni and the men of BTS will free our men and boys of future generations from this trap of toxicity and half-lived lives they live now, and will precipitate the liberation of women and girls from the oppression and self-hatred/robbing of potential they’ve had to live with all through history.

  17. Being soft and getting bullied made me become a badass. So i diasgree with this guy. I will bet this guy is gay or in the closet.

  18. Sounds like an excuse to not man up. LOL! To me masculinity is assuming responsibility and being able to care for your responsibilities and loved ones even if all civilization broke down. So fighting, protection, invulnerability and toughness are required, but so are curiosity, love, art, beauty, and appropriate but fleeting vulnerability.

  19. justin needs to talk in schools. like i know so many guys at my school who need to hear this stuff. they act so tough but i honestly know personally that some of them are using a mask. they have so many emotions and i’ve had some of them even tell me that they don’t talk to people about their feelings because they’re scared of judgement. they’re scared of getting made fun of. so they keep things bottled up.

  20. This is why I love a “nice guy” despite the “nice guys finish last” phrase. A good man that’s sensitive and caring when needed is confident and attractive

  21. inside some low self esteem,follows the : see my beard,: ? only states you are male. dont follow the crowd just to fit in….

  22. I completely agree, I love you video, but is something good that little by little those stereotypes are disappearing and transforming to a better education and behavior more inclusive and with common sense.

  23. This guy is man enough inside and out. I whish more men think like him. But most of them are too afraid to accept themselves and go against the stupid "strong" man idea, when most of them doesn't even know what is considered strong. Very nice speech btw.❤👏

  24. I hate it when at school it is so weird when a girl sits with a guy and then apparently that means you have a crush on them.

  25. Real good women do not like feminine men who show weakness. That is why you will never have a good woman beside you. Men have to be strong for women. It’s the new natural selection process, old since boy meets girl and unfortunately for you…you will not make it. You will not be happy. Some people just need to suffer and die.

  26. admitting to vulnerability is one of the most powerful acts in this world. it takes a lot of strength to be honest about your weakness,

  27. my teacher always tells us to try and be respectful humans in class

  28. he is my dream husband 😭💓 I'm sixteen I'm watching Jane the Virgin and I lovee the show and I love them alll

  29. This issue involves all of us. And we all have failed this for one reason or the other. But to say the womb, the body of the family, women have nothing to do with it sounds like your good message is just half of the story. Still I agree with half of this half.

  30. Effemination of men will cause the destruction of civilization

  31. And The Answer Is… – don't be a cuck or a simp and just go MGTOW – it's the only way

  32. Wow, what a talk! "The woman I love the most"….The bird will not fly". I believe you have made that journey from the head to the heart.
    Carol (102019-utube)

  33. I feel like most of these feminist, and male feminist seems to forget that it was us "toxic masculine men" were the ones who actually gave them jobs, and actually protect them from danger. If you tried to take us out than I am pretty sure your pro women, and pro demasculized men society would crumble and make the world plummet into a succession, I ain't falling for this liberal BS. And if this Justin truly cared for us men like he want to describe he is than why are majority of his audience women? Shouldn't they be I don't know men?

  34. Let's see
    1) Wishful thinking
    2) Denying our true nature biologically.
    No matter how many times women insist they want a caring nurturing vulnerable man…this is just NOT what women are attracted too.
    Do you all honestly think men do this dangerous machismo stuff for fun ? Maintaining a macho, indestructible appearance is a lot of hard work, but it is necessary to attract women…that's why we do it.

  35. It started out promising, but failed at the end.
    There are parts which agree with, eg. accepting yourself, coming to terms with your vulnerability. In the last third however, it became obvious that this is just the usual feminist propaganda we've been hearing the last years. It's not been working, why would it now? Will feminist never learn and give up?
    Not masculinity is toxic. This propaganda is toxic.
    He mentions glass ceiling, gender wage gap etc. (This is actually the obvious telltale where the propaganda shows.)

    The gender wage gap myth has been debunked many times. It has been scientifically proven that there is actually a wage gap, however it is not caused by gender differences but individual choices that may be specific to genders. Eg. engineer jobs pay good but nursery jobs don't. Former is chosen mostly by men, latter mostly by women. But female engineers earn just as good as male ones. And this is just one example, there are many other aspects.

    Accepting yourself and being able to be vulnerable in front of others is very important. But that doesn't just happen like that. To accept yourself, you first have to realize that you don't acceptance of everyone. That most people don't concern you and trying to please everyone will end in pleasing no one, specially not yourself. Show your true self and attract people who'll love you the way you are, that way you won't have to pretend, you can truly be yourself. And at that point you have learned to not need acceptance from anyone but yourself.
    If Justin had to realize that later in life by himself, that means his parents didn't taught him that.

    Once you start accepting yourself, that's when vulnerability comes into play. If you start showing your vulnerability (without having proper confidence in yourself first), that could have devastating effects which might set you back for years or in worst, your whole life. Step by step is a good approach.
    If you had to pretend to be overly masculine, if you were so insecure about yourself, it means your parents were not there to guide you properly.

    In the end he thanks his father for showing how to have a good heart. But from the talk it's clear that that wasn't enough.
    Guiding a boy how to be a self-confident man is a father's responsibility. (If present, if not, then another man model is needed.) Which is more than having a good heart.

  36. I loved this I really did. But men are abused too. We as women have to understand men as well. We have to help each other.

  37. and doing a TED talk makes me less self-centered? telegenic articulate Man self hater. Call Justin NOW!

  38. Looking at this video again, this man is NOT done trying to be, "Man Enough", as what he's actually doing is being the Feminists idea of what a "Man" is.

  39. As long as your tall enough is good for me

  40. I love him more than his character like Raf never really admitted his wrongdoings and he’s so sentimental and sweet his wife and children are so lucky 🥰

  41. No words. I'm a girl, not a man. But some thing Justin said I've already felt it

  42. This may be just a north american problem. Sexes work together not against each other cultures.

  43. You are inspirational Justin. Thank you for sharing this. Many men need this message. I hope young men follow this counsel. 🙏🏽

  44. human civilization advanced pretty far being led by men over the last 4000 years or so. While there's a place for men to be more honest about their failures and weaknesses, there is sometimes a need to brush away the tear and get on with it.

    Check this Steven Crowder video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=308&v=FwAmUWzggm8

     has a great discussion on this, where he describes a girl at the vet's office who was there to put her dog to sleep. Steven was broken up over the situation as well, but he repressed his tears and tried the lighten the mood for her by telling some jokes. When he went home and recounted the situation to his wife – he said he bawled like a baby.

    Point is – crying and bawling with the girl was just going to make her feel worse. There's a time and place for everything.

  45. He lost me after 3 minutes. Women aren't oppressed. They actually have more rights than men.

  46. …He's allowed to do any feel whatever he wants because he's beautiful. Nothing he says or does can ever be wrong because he matters and the rest of us don't.

    Change my mind.

  47. Most of his grievances sound like his own personal problems. I am a normal dude that hunts, fights, cooks, cleans, takes care of kids..is that all masculine? I dunno. My daughter does all that same stuff. Does that make it feminine? I dunno. This guy does not speak for me or any other guy or girl that I know. TED TALKS really needs to keep this weird ideological dogma away or risk becoming a caricature-oh wait, its almost 2020, they are a joke…

  48. I love him as Rafael Solano but I love him more as himself as Justin Baldoni., true I love man who can do house hold chores and ask for my help. A true and courageous man is the one who can shows vulnerability or his soft spot.

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